Letting Go and Letting Come: The Bottom of the U

This is still one of my favorite contemplations and guiding principles.

Once i completely let go....all the way....let go of wanting an answer, a direction, or anything at all....once i am willing to die into this moment...completely and truly die even into great fear, then there is complete stillness. There is nothing. Sometimes there is nothing for what seems like a long time.

But you stay in this nothing space. You just stay and stay and stay and eventually there is an inkling or a desire to stir. Eventually the stillness wants to die too, and from way down deep...from somewhere prior to your existence and beyond it, some inkling enters your awareness. Movement wants to happen, wants to emerge, be born. At that point don't grasp, just be curious. Stay still. Wait. The inkling may die back out and if so let it. It may stay small or it may grow on its own. The energy of it may not leave you alone. It might start tugging on your sleeve or pulling at your shirt or kick you in the ass or rise right up out of you and through you, so powerfully that it disrupts your entire life. It might be a small but constant trickle. Pay attention and follow/respond. If it dies out remain still. If it doesn't leave you alone, then listen. Follow. Pretty soon you find that you are completely animated by This. It moves You. This is one way to know who you are.